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April 30 春游骑自己的爱驹 上路了 不去追风似的速度 不去想晚间的宿处 穿行于乡间古道 徘徊于沃野山岗 日出即行 月升则眠 行则有大河在畔 鸟儿在旁 眠则有星月为伴 啁啾同枕 饿了摘一把榆钱 渴了饮几滴山泉 看不尽的杨柳新枝 青青山岗 听不完的绿波微荡 流水激昂 放飞束缚已久的心灵 放逐疲惫不堪的身形 让自己和天地融合 使心灵与万物同一 前边 几丝 湿湿的南风拂面 像妻子的手一样温柔 后面 一层 薄薄的黄土扬起 似父母的心时时跟留 几个着红装、穿绿袄追逐嬉戏的小孩子 又带来不尽的希望 April 29 我的侠客梦(一)五月初三,洛阳城外十里。 五月份的天气已经让人觉得燥热起来,特别是中午时分。现在正是午时,炙热的太阳晒得郭悦头皮发痛,口干舌燥。早上起程的时候,他并没有带水,不是因为忘记了,是他过于相信了自己对干燥的承受能力。于是他又想到了自己的马,如果马还在,自己早该在洛阳城了,哪还用在这里受这日头的煎熬。可一转眼,脑子里转着的只剩那个抢马姑娘的面容和笑声了。以至后来连他自己都弄不清楚,到底是因为惦记着马才想到那个姑娘,还是因为想那个姑娘才惦记着自己的马。总之呢,每次都是白色的马逐渐变成了着红装的姑娘。我的侠客梦——序少年时最大的心愿是成为一个侠客。认为只有拥有很高的武功,交天下朋友的胸怀,去过云游的生活及做着打抱不平的事情,才算作最美的人生。好像不全?对,还漏掉了很重要的一点,即一定要碰到一个很美丽、可爱而且功夫也不错的姑娘。 到而今已经知道侠客是永远作不成了,只是还是想为心中那份夙愿找个归宿,于是我的侠客路便在纸上开始了。 April 28 现场直播摘录——为练神技荡群魔 先练臂力有妙方无(56834677) 17:24:41 那接下来我们开始今天的节目 无(56834677) 17:25:12 不知道各位观众是否还记得上次节目中谈到的今天要讲的内容 有哪位观众知道吗 无(56834677) 17:25:32 请大家踊跃一点 留意(93346383) 17:25:48
无(56834677) 17:26:43 没什么好害羞的嘛 好 来了位热心朋友 请问这位朋友 还记得上次说过的这次要讲的内容吗 留意(93346383) 17:26:55 快讲吧 不然下班了哦 哈哈 无(56834677) 17:27:17 既然这位朋友这么说 那我们也就不浪费时间了 无(56834677) 17:27:57 书归正传 言到正题 留意(93346383) 17:28:17
无(56834677) 17:30:50 各位看官 我们今天要说的是 为练神技荡群魔 先练臂力有妙方 无(56834677) 17:31:45 为修神技收群魔 先练臂力有妙方 似乎要更好一点 毕竟 不能出现同一个字在一副对联中嘛 无(56834677) 17:32:47 先放下收群魔不说 我们来谈谈练臂力 无(56834677) 17:33:54 要说这个臂力 大家马上会想到俗语 手无缚鸡之力 无(56834677) 17:35:25 这个俗语本是形容古代那些 只懂得头悬梁 锥刺股 的读书人的 张志超 (75157979) 17:35:39 啊呸 无(56834677) 17:36:27 说的好 啊呸 谁说读书人 就都是如此 更别说都应如此了 无(56834677) 17:37:16 21世纪最需要的是什么 黎叔说的 好 是人才 (天下无贼) 无(56834677) 17:37:38 其实呢 说得更准确一点 是 复合型的人才 无(56834677) 17:38:15 这就 要 谈到什么才算是复合型的人才呢 无(56834677) 17:38:54 所谓复合就是说 不只懂一样 比如说 不只会计算机 不只会 水文学原理 等等 留意(93346383) 17:39:20 跑题了 跑题了 你呀的 无(56834677) 17:39:46 嘘 这是问题的意义所在 不得不谈 也行!(93344801) 17:39:49 留意 严肃点 无(56834677) 17:40:13 古语有云 名不正则言不顺 也行!(93344801) 17:40:27 继续 张志超 (75157979) 17:40:58 啊呸 我啐你一脸减肥茶 留意(93346383) 17:41:26 哈哈 无(56834677) 17:42:15 说的 好 减肥茶有人懂吗 肥胖已经成为当今社会一个极其关键的问题所在 无(56834677) 17:42:31 极其恶劣的问题 无(56834677) 17:43:55 因为肥胖导致很多人得了很多不该得的疾病 因为肥胖好的小伙子、大姑娘找不到对象 无(56834677) 17:44:39 在这种极其危机时刻 减肥茶产生了 无(56834677) 17:45:04 真是久旱逢甘露啊 也行!(93344801) 17:45:20 然后张可以找到对象了,是不是? 无(56834677) 17:46:34 听我讲 可是 与此同时 很多的不法商贩 看到其中有利可图 便 铤而走险 并不惜拿人民的身体健康来试刀 卑鄙之极 下流之极 无(56834677) 17:47:43 于是很多的惨剧发生了 很多人因为服用了 不合格的减肥茶 而身体受损 无(56834677) 17:49:00 因此 当代的有为青年应该对减肥茶有很深刻的了解 如果发现了不合格的产品 要立即与工商部门联系 留意(93346383) 17:49:22 你呀说书还干吗呢 无(56834677) 17:49:40 好 我们减肥茶就说到这里 接下来回到正题 讲复合型人才 无(56834677) 17:50:28 我们讲的不是随便拿来听听消遣时间的 我们讲的都是当今时代最有用 最急需的东西 留意(93346383) 17:50:49 TMD 下班了 无(56834677) 17:51:10 我们是时代的前锋 是祖国的未来 我们的成长代表人类的前进方向 无(56834677) 17:51:45 (看了看表)确实该下班了 看来今天的话题是讲不完了 不过我们可以留在明天继续说 无(56834677) 17:53:14 我们来总结一下 大家今天一共可以学到 这么些东西 社会需要复合型人才 我们要努力把自己培养成复合型人才 想必大家这点上已经得到了共识 无(56834677) 17:56:20 今天的谈话我会把它全部复制到我的space里面 如果有同学因为上班或者上课没有看到今天的节目 大家可以以后自己去观赏、学习 无(56834677) 17:57:11 今天的节目就到这里 欢迎收看 下次再见 April 27 第二次骑车行下午打出了下了好久准备路上用的地图,距离我的第二次中途骑车旅行还剩3天了。这段时间虽然陆续做了不少准备,但还是有很多需要担忧的地方: 最担心的还是自己的体力,一周前就开始酸痛的双腿到现在竟然还未恢复,要知道当时只骑了一个小时。第一天能否骑到200公里是这次旅行成功的关键,就是说要以20公里/小时的速度连续骑10个小时,很难想象现在的我能达到这样的水平。但我必须试一试。希望那天别是南风,那样还好一点。 再就是我那娇贵的自行车了,虽然这次会带修车的工具,但车子坏了肯定要耽误很多时间。 虽然会带地图,但还是有点担心自己会迷路;曾经就发生过我领着我一个同学在南京城里转圈的事情。 晒伤的问题就不必太在意了,虽然同是五月,但这里比不得江南,而且我专门买了SPF达30的防晒霜。 这次回家旅行行程380公里(估算),计划耗时3天,经费150元,要参观三个景点,分别是第一天下午的万家寨水利枢纽,第二天上午的娘娘滩和石径禅院。 最后就是安全了,虽然自己好象命挺大的。但天有不测风云呢。希望自己能平安到家吧。April 26 请借我一双翅膀请借我一双翅膀 我要去找我那心爱的姑娘 她已经准备好行装 正焦急得注视我在的方向 我要快点赶到她的身旁 去帮她拿那老重的行囊 我挽起了她柔软的小手让她已经疲倦的身影靠在我的肩上 天已昏黄 我们把背影留给了夕阳 请借我一双翅膀 April 25 读《伯夷列传》自从看了《伯夷列传》就一直想为其写点东西,却始终找不到切入点,直到早上看到歌手从飞因胃癌晚期病逝的新闻,再联想自己平日之思考与经历,终成此篇。 《伯夷列传》居七十列传之首,然“此篇记夷齐行事甚少,感慨议论居其太半,反论赞之宾,为传记之主。”“司马迁从伯夷叔齐高风亮节联想到自古以来仁人志士的遭遇,联想到自己遭受的屈辱与痛苦,对天道赏善罚恶的传统观念产生了强烈的怀疑,”天道如何?天道如何? 伯夷、叔齐因耻于食周之粟而饿死于首阳山。怨邪非邪?孔子曰:“伯夷、叔齐,不念旧恶,怨是用希。”“求仁得仁,又何怨乎?” 或曰:“天道无亲,常与善人。”若伯夷、叔齐,可谓善人者非邪?积仁洁行,如此而饿死。且七十子之徒,仲尼独荐颜渊为好学。然回也屡空,糟糠不厌,而卒蚤夭。更如今日之丛飞,散尽家财救苦于失学儿童,己则得患绝症,初时竟无资来医,终于繁华之年而离别于世,天之报施善人,其何如哉?盗跖日杀不辜,肝人之肉,暴戾恣睢,聚党数千人,横行天下,竟以寿终,是遵何德哉? 若至近世,操行不轨,事犯忌讳,而终身逸乐,富厚累世不绝。或择地而蹈之,时然后出言,行不由径,非公正不发愤,而遇祸灾者,不可胜数也。余甚惑焉,倘所谓天道,是邪非邪? 为天者,亦难矣!天行有常,存于纷乱,毁于同一。唯喜怒哀乐、生老病死备具才为人世、才为人生。仅于此,犹为不足。君子落难,小人得志;好人不测,歹人逍遥等诸多万事都只为人世增加屏障。佛之世界亦有危,若佛者,于外无争,于内无欲。此与土石草木,有何差异。况无悲则不知喜,无苦则不知甜。人世如此,殊无他法。及此,吾众需知,人各有行,天早有定,尧、桀虽品行不同,但于世间意义当同。 April 24 不再年少都快5月份了,气温还是很低。刚才洗澡的时候,水竟然一沾到身子,就化作白色的水汽飘起了。这种事情以前可是只发生在最寒冷的那几天的。 洗完澡做俯卧撑,竟然只能做到七十个了,再加上前几天一向引以为傲的心脏出的故障,不得不承认自己的黄金季节已经过了,身体是越来越不中用了。 22岁的年纪,44岁的身体,66岁的心态。这样的组合体还能熬多少个春秋呢?又想到年少时喜欢的那首歌: 扬一场远远的风送我,少年的梦如穹苍一帆. 自来且自去,不带一抹尘泥,万水千山尽映我心底. 画一面远方风景送我,少年的梦总向往天空. 难解功名利,天地我自任行,愿拿青春唤醒世间寂寞. 解不开少年的情,聚散岂能随心.浮世情愁悲欢离和,我泣我飘零. 唱一曲澎湃的歌送我,少年的心如波涛汹涌. 几番风雪遇,是非随云散去, 岂愿羁绊在红尘笑爱里. 那种心境已不在了。 April 23 宿舍的生日4月23日是个特殊的日子,倒不是因为这一天是世界读书日(莎士比亚的生日),是因为那是大学时宿舍的舍日,虽然从来没正式过一次。423并不是个多么了不起的寝室,论学习甚至算得上是我们班最差的一个,卫生搞得不错,得过一个三星级宿舍的称号,但这样的宿舍我们班都不只我们一个。尽管如此,我还是要为这个小集体写上几笔,因为这个集体确实有很多值得记述的东西,因为这是用几个年轻人的青春谱写的乐章。 把我们共同经历每件事都写下来是不可能的,也是没有意义的。一叶而知秋,何况明年还要接着写的。 大学里,课是少得可怜的,很多个下午是没有一堂的。刚逃离高中樊笼一样学习生活的我们实在不愿再钻进书堆里去,他们又是不喜欢运动的人,于是睡觉就成了唯一可以做的事情。特别是冬天的时候,没有暖气的屋里和外面是一样的温度,被窝则要暖和的多。总是午饭后就都躺在了床上,午觉一般会持续到下午3点到4点,等实在没了睡意,就会放歌来听,而且总是那几盘磁带的反反复复。直到现在每当我听到那时放过的歌时,昏暗而安静的屋子(记忆中夏天用来遮光,冬天则用来保温的窗帘总是拉上的),几个躺在被窝里的年轻人,总又会出现在我的面前。确实是安静的屋子,因为我们都不是很能说话的人,而且极有限的话题又限制了谈话的次数。或者翻几页书,或者听听调频,再或者就是再去会那梦中的情人。唯一的声音便是那音箱里的歌声,总是一盘磁带听一个下午,因为实在没有人愿意下床去换,当然也因为其他磁带也是听过许多遍的了。 一起上街的次数并不是很多,主要因为和他们比我是一个更懒的人,而且比起上街,我更喜欢泡在图书馆。既然不多,也就值得再写写,物以稀为贵嘛。那天应该已是十二月份了,天气很冷了,是谁的提议已经不记得了,大家能一起答应下来也很难得,这样的日子本来是睡觉的好日子的。那是我第一次去夫子庙,那天天气不是很好,灰蒙蒙的,空气湿湿的,感觉要下雪了一样。出去的时间已经记不清楚了,只记得无论我们走到哪里都能听到那首F4的《流星雨》,那也成了我在夫子庙最难忘的印象。那次逛街让我感觉到了江南冬季的温柔,虽然还是有些冷,但满街的行人特别是那些并不曾凋谢依然美丽的姑娘们那温柔的眼睛,会让你的心无限的温暖。 佛教四大金刚简介“四大金刚”是寺院天王殿里供奉的四尊天王。之所以被称“四大金刚”,皆缘于《封神演义》里的戏言。 四大天王由来久远,早期佛典记载的天王力士只有一尊,像云岗、龙门石窟中,都是单独出现的。后来渐渐演变为二尊,当印度的佛教衍生出密宗时,天王神又被其摄取,成为四尊护法神,也就是无畏天王、灭怖畏天王、虽胜天王、除怖畏天王。他们手中分别持有棒、索、卷、刀或轮。他们分别镇守在须弥山山腰处犍陀罗山的东、南、西、北各峰。 四大天王传入中国后神明虽同但性质已完全改变,变成象征“风调雨顺”的四尊神。其中无畏天王更名为持国天王,本来象征智慧,现代表“风”﹔灭怖畏天王更名为增长天王,本来意味着谐乐众生,现代表“调”﹔虽胜天王更名为广目天王,本来意味着覆护众生,现代表“雨”﹔除怖畏天王更名为多闻天王,本来意味着救援众生,现代表“顺” 。为什么四大天王传入中国后会有这样的改变呢?这是因为中国自古以来以农立国,不可预测的天灾最能影响农耕稻作,因此人们祈求上天保佑年年能风调雨顺,象征风、调、 雨、顺的神明也就自然成了民间普遍的信仰。 四大天王造型及所持法器,说法颇不一致,各大庙门亦不相同。中国大陆有谓:东方持国天王,着白色,托琵琶;南方增长天王,着青色,执剑;西方广目天王,着红色,握蛇;北方多闻天王,着绿色,掌伞。四人均作胡貌梵相,铠甲介胄。 除了前面讲过代表风调雨顺之意外,四大天王又各有内涵。 持国天王,代表的是负责任。大家一定知道持家。虽然每个家都有家长,持家主要是家长的责任。但任何一个幸福美满的家庭,一定是每个家庭成员都有出力。要使一个社会和谐,国家兴旺也一定要我们每个人出其力,尽其责。持国天王就是教给我们这件事。 第二尊增长天王。是讲我们要天天求进步,不进则退。时代在前进,我们怎能不去想着进步呢?怎样才能够把这两桩事情做的很好呢?后面的两尊天王教给我们方法。 四大天王手上拿的法器也有说法。东方天王手上拿的是琵琶,代表凡是做事情都要有个度。就像弹琴一样,弦松了,弹不了,紧了,就断了。南方天王手上拿的是剑,这个剑叫慧剑,慧剑断烦恼。西方天王掌中握蛇,蛇代表变化,代表这个世界上的一切人、一切事、一切物无时无刻不在变化,我们要看清事物的本质,才能够应付自如。北方天王手上拿的是一把伞,伞是遮挡用的,千变万化的世界,总有种种的污染,当碰到污染时,要将伞撑开保护自己。它代表我们在广学多闻中,要注意取其精华,弃其糟粕。 April 22 午后年后的日子越发显得漫长。特别是周末的时候,一大段的时间我会一个人在家,因为没有其他地方可去。翻几页书,而后在房间里走几步,从卧室到厨房,再到卧室。而后便去窗前从我只拉开一条缝隙的窗户向外看去。看飘在天上的白云,那摇曳的树枝,当然更多的是那些走在路上的行人。有时会很羡慕他们的忙碌,不用一个人无聊得只有寂寞做伴。当然有时也会鄙夷他们蝼蚁般的来去终日,只去追求那庸俗的生活、浅薄的快乐。 不过他们确已成为填充我生活的一部分,每当沙尘飞扬遮天蔽日很少有行人在路上的时候,心中会有一种失落。 每当站在窗前的时候,我都会吃花生。因为花生就放在窗台上。这时我会觉得自己很酷,因为每到这时我都会想到吃花生的路小佳,那个无论何时无论何地都在吃花生的路小佳,那个永远独来独往的路小佳。这时他那一流的剑术和永远的骄傲似也到了我的身上,对,就是这样。 每到天地昏黄的时候,我都会想喝几杯酒,可是一想到自己口袋里、存折上剩下的不多的钱,便又不忍向那已买了两个月的几罐酒下口。这似乎也算得上是一种生活的无奈吧。 April 21 The firstI had a dream last night. In the dream I went to visit the first girl I liked. The feeling lasted from 5 to 8 years old, maybe longer. At that time I lived at a small village with my parents. She was the most beautiful girl at our age in that village. She stood with me when we were jogging and doing physical exercise. It lasted for 3 and a half years. I was so lucky. I was a naughty boy at childhood and often teased some girl or chatted at class. But if she was also at there I had done nothing and said nothing. In a word, I would be calm even shame at her face. I seldom talked to her, maybe less than a word per day. What a pity it is. The first tracking a girl also occurred at that time from the school to her home, and it was the only one. In my eighth summer I once went to her home alone to tell her mother that I loved her, her mother just nodded her head after hearing my words. Maybe her face turned, the memory wasn’t very clear. After that summer I transferred to the county for the adjustment of my father's work. I haven't seen her again, just got a message from my Mum that she went to my home in the village on the day when my Mum went back to deal with the things we didn’t bring with us. She had asked my Mum "When will I be back?" Two years later a close friend went to the county to continue his study at junior school. I had seen her in the graduate photo. What a lovely girl she is. Six years later after the College Entrance Exam, I had been back to the village. I lingered outside her house nearly one hour, for I hadn't the courage to knock the gate. Time flies so fast, Four and a half years have already elapsed. I wrote a passage in a morning to keep the memory forever. April 20 一个高中生注意到她是在恢复跑步不久后的某一天, 当时的感觉是这个丫头不是很正,身上透着一股邪气。眼神很散,苍白的脸怕是因为生活太没有规律,步子走的不快,却似浮在空中一般,不够塌实。当时我想到的是:“有些人是注定漂零一生、没有归宿,虽然惋惜,却无能为力。”“希望你能有个好的未来。”我只能这样祝愿她。 接下来的几周跑步是断断续续的,偶尔也会碰到她,但都没有很仔细的去看。 前天早上是6点钟出去的,碰见她是在那条长长的巷子里,也许是还没看到什么值得看的人或物,我特别去看了她。不一样了,身上的邪气少了很多,双眼恢复了一些女孩原本的纯彻,只是脸还是太白了些,似乎是气血不足。脚步依然不快,但已没了那种轻浮。“我明天应该还会看到她吧。”我想。 前晚虽然睡得很不好,到早上时却也没了睡意,早早的醒了。出去的时候比前天要早几分钟。碰见她是在走过那条长巷之后了。她的时间真是分秒不差(现在我才想到应该是她的闹钟分秒不差),我很吃惊,也不由得对这个女孩多了几分喜欢。更我让吃惊的是她的样子。她的脸色愈发显得苍白,眼中没了那种邪气,却带着些须的哀怨。好像我的,于是我喜欢上了这个女孩子。“我应该去认识她,帮她做些事情,”我想到。 今天早上出去时已是6点10分了,为了能再碰见她,我加快了跑步的速度,不过我不知道是不是能补回10分钟那么多,怀着些许的不安我拐进了那个长巷子。她已经走过了吗?我搜寻着,远处在两辆并行的自行车后现出了一个小的身影,粉色的上衣,天蓝色的裤子。走近了时突然发现她的头发梳得很精致,走路的姿势也很好看。等走过了很久,我转过头去看,她的背影渐渐消失在了那个巷口。“我明天得去认识她,可我该怎么去认识她呢。” April 19 一个小女孩那是刚恢复跑步没几天的一个早上,是三月份的中旬。天气还很冷,记得当时还穿着毛衣,公园里的人还很少。跑完步转进回家的那个小巷,就看到前面走着个小女孩,六、七岁的样子,马尾辫,红色略大的外套快及了她的膝盖,袖子有挽了一些但还是遮住了她的手,背一个适中的书包,手里拎个小水壶,脚上是双小靴子,我猜那肯定是过年时买来的。她紧靠着路边,走的不快。如果在平时,看到这样的小女孩我会很高兴,笑容会不由得现在脸上。但看到她的背影我只感到心在疼。当时还不到七点,路过的一个小学甚至没开大门。她那孤单的身影越发显得瘦小了。当路的右面远远的来了辆车时,她便走到左面去。是的,她没有等到车走近时再跑过去,她已很懂得如何保护自己,可是她还只有那么小,那么小。我的心更加觉得悲凉,我快步走到了她的前面,然后拐进了另一个巷子,我停住脚步觉得应该看看她的样子,但我无法回头。你一定要让她活下去,好好的活下去。我愤恨的祈祷着。 April 18 她和我同姓第一次注意到她是在大一时一个同学为庆生日而设的晚餐上,那时已经是开学后的第三个月。她的眼睛很大,并且都不会眨一下。当时我留意了所有的人,可到现在我唯一记得的就是她那双大眼睛。
印象中的第二个她已经是在大一下学期了。还记得那天下着雨,空气湿湿的。也许当时已经停了,不是那么清晰了。想起来了,那天是周末,上自习的人不多,我在教室坐到7点半左右也就拎着包出来了。兴致不是很好,低头想着一些事情。偶然一抬头去看路,就看到她和她男朋友从对面走了过来。我挤出一些笑和她打招呼,她也招了招手。她男朋友我没仔细看,只是觉得很瘦,特别是脸。
第三个印象很模糊。我记得一天早上,突然想到给她们宿舍的一个女生打电话说件事情,电话是她接的。我要找的那个女生还没起床,我突然觉得这样太唐突了些,就匆匆把电话挂了。事后又想那么早打电话别人会怎么想呢?所以等团书记来问我的时候,我一口否认了,我想当时他没有注意到我脸色的变化。等团书记把我的回答转述给她们宿舍的人时:“我觉得那个声音就是他的。”这个声音是她的。呵呵,那时候的自己真够逊的。 The whole life of BaiBai was born in a small village, where it was always snowy. She and her parents lived on planting in several acres barren lands. The life was not very easy, but all family felt satisfied and happy. One day when she played on the river, she found she had a special talent that she could use her hands to squeeze the water in every shape according to her mind. Then she went to tell her mother about this with great joy and pride, just at this moment her father came back and find out her daughter had this uncommon talent. Then this raged man killed Bai’s mother, his own beloved wife. Bai felt great horror in her heart. When her father moved near to her with a knife in one hand, she defeated against him with nature and killed him by her special nature. She fled her village in a mingled feeling of agony and horror. She tramped in every corner of unfamiliar towns and villages. In these dim days, there were only lonely feelings and sad memories accompanying her.
A snowy night with a shining Moon several years later, she sit in a side of a bridge with her eyes filled with sadness. No one looked at her, even a glimpse all day. There was almost no one in the whole street after sunset, for it was so cold that no one liked to went outside unless he or she had something that must had be done. She looked at the surface of the road, though she couldn’t see anything beyond snow. A pair of feet came to her eyes, then they didn’t move forward just as before. She raised her head and had a look at the person, a young man with his eyes looking at her, she smiled naturally though she didn’t had a smile almost 3 years. She felt the young man needed her at that time as her own words many years later she told to Naruto. I’m sure she had to felt a feeling of being cared by other people. “you have a pair of eyes just like mine.” This is the first sentence she said to him.
From then on, she followed him no matter what he did and where he went. She was trained to be a killer, though she had a soft heart. The days were full of joy. The happy time flied quickly. She had been 14 years old. Sometimes she felt she came to love the man, then she laughed at herself with her red cheeks. But more times she thought she just a piece of tool of his and should do everything for him, even died. In fact he didn’t put much effort on her, and he thought she was a boy from the first meeting to the last second Bai lived in the world. Bai was also used to the life pretending as a boy. Only seldom when she was alone, she might put on a piece of girl’s dress, undid her tied hair. Just as that morning Naruto met in the forest.
That man who nurtured Bai was not a good person. He had a great ambition. To attain his goal, he had done a lot of bad things, though he lost at last. But he didn’t give up. He and Bai fled their country. To get enough money, he was employed by a notorious person to kill a bridge engineer, who also employed some killers from the village of Leaf to protect himself. In the first time the man was defeated by Kakaxi and his three students on the way to the country of Wave, the engineer’s hometown. In a sunny morning, Bai went to a forest to pick up a kind of plant which was used as a medicine, where she came across Naruto sleeping on the grass land. She had a memory of the boy who was the man’s opponent. The idea of killing the boy for the man came to her mind first, then she raised her hand. “I can’t hurt such a young and good boy.” Naruto waked at that moment. “Sister, what are you doing?” He asked and smiled to her. “Oh, I’m picking up some medicine.”She answered and returned her smile. “Why did you sleep here, you might be sick.” Bai asked in a sincere tongue then. “I’m doing exercise.” Naruto answered with a pride look on his face. “Why did you do it so hard?” “Because I want to be the most powerful man of our village. It’s my dream. I want to get the acknowledge from everyone.” “What is my dream?” She asked herself. She smiled because she got the answer that was to protect that man and do everything for the man. Soon she got enough that kind of plant She said to Naruto, “Go back to have breakfast, you must be hungry, I have to leave too.” “Yes, see you. Sister.” He waved his hand to her with great joy on his face. She walked several feet then turned her face to him and said with a happy look. “I’m not a girl. I’m a lad.” She went away, leaving Naruto in a big surprise. “A man is more lovely than XiaoYing.” He said to himself and he couldn’t believe it.
The man didn’t give up, after a week’s cure, he and Bai came to beat the four ones again. The man fought against Kakaxi. Bai fought against Naruto and Saski. XiaoYing was to protect the engineer. Bai’s power was so strong that Naruto and Saski even couldn’t give a hit back. But Naruto wasn’t a common person. The nine-tail fox was in his body. If he got a big hurt, the fox’s power would be used by him. When Saski wounded heavily and lied down on the land, the fox’s power erupted. Bai lost the fight. “I lost, I won’t be needed by the man.” then she cast her last look at the man. “ I’m sorry I can’t do anything for you again. Please kill me, Naruto.” The musk she wore on her face in the fight was already broken, so Naruto was shocked again. “Why did do that?” “It’s my dream to be a useful tool of the man, but now I lost the fight.You have broken out my dream. Please kill me, Naruto.” At this time, Bai found the man would be killed right away. “I’m sorry, Naruto I can’t die now.” When Naruto heard the last words Bai left in the world, Bai got Kakaxi’s attack for the man. She died when she was 14 years old. Snow was falling instantaneously in that summer morning. All fights stopped. The man killed his employer with a sword getting in his mouth at last, and he was killed by other employees then. Kakaxi put him next to Bai. When he spend his last power clinging Bai’s hand, A piece of snow fell onto Bai’s face and smelt, then slid down the cheek, just like a piece of tear, but because of happyness. Bai’s life was short and hard. Maybe it was good for her to end her life early. Hope she have a good fate in the next life.
一个梦 昨天晚上风挺大的,夹着些沙尘,八点多回去时,路上已没多少人了,仅有的几个也畏畏缩缩只顾着赶路的,心中泛起一层寒意,凄清。快到天亮时做了个梦,梦中自己救了一名女子,可我感觉她并不这么认为,我伤的两个人似乎已是她的同伴,可她也没说什么,不,她似乎有求我不要伤害他们,可我还是把一个推下了悬崖。我更想将她称为女孩,因为她确实小着我两岁,面容则更轻,也许是心更轻。这个女孩我应该是以前就认识的,更仔细点就是我以前青梅竹马的女孩。我带她回到了自己住的地方,那是一个荒漠中的小镇,仅有的几户人家算不得淳朴善良。不知是我没钱还是镇上没有房子,我和别人合住着一间房子。带她回去的那天上午我和她去屋旁的空地坐,那是个长着荒草的坡地,不大,三面是悬崖,不过有着膝盖高的荒草倒还是在太阳光下泛起一层金黄,在那个地方已算作风景。她说话不多,只是简短得答我的不多的问题。我让她的身子倚在我怀里,就这样默默得过了很久。后来似乎我有件事,或者睡着了,太累了吧。总之那一段时间的记忆是空白的。快到傍晚时我找她去一起吃饭,发现她已不在那了,到我住的屋子里时,一个穿黑衣服的女孩趴在桌上睡着,不知道为什么黑与白那么显著的差别我竟没分辨出来,不对,我一直没去看她到底穿的什么衣服,我看的只有她的脸、她的眼睛。由于她趴在桌上,所以我看不到她的脸,但看她的身材、头发和她挺像的。于是我作了个推断:在这种荒僻的地方怎么还会再有这样精致的女孩,这个无疑就是她了。但是我错了,当我去轻轻抱住她的时候,她自然就醒了,转过头时我们同时呆住了,我连忙松开手并道着歉,她则红着脸跑出去了。我跑到外面去找她。后来她从镇子外面回来了,她的脸竟然微笑着。那是我还没见到过的,就是说自从“救”她到刚才她一直没对我笑过。我问她去哪了?她竟然说跟着镇里的几个男人出去玩了,当时心里是什么感觉呢?再后来的梦里依然能感觉得到她的气息,只是看不到她的人影了。好象自己当时也已在梦外了,在看戏了。人生如戏,戏如人生。 和她相处加起来不到一天的时间,但我知道我是爱她的,可是她在想什么我就不知道了。好象她对我总是畏惧的。和我在一起有种压抑的感觉。早上起得很迟,拉开窗帘时看到天依然是昏黄的。走出宿舍楼,一阵湿湿的寒风即迎面吹来,风是湿的,感觉就是她眼中未流出的泪,风是冷的,是她看我的眼光,冷的却依然柔和的。骑车快到单位时,两滴泪从眼中流下。是的,我应该把自己的过错纠正过来的。 破的印象每天你都会和很多人擦身而过,其中肯定有人会在你的记忆中留下痕迹,这痕迹会随着岁月的轮回渐渐的淡化、模糊,甚至有时你都分不清楚哪些是确实发生过的,哪些是自己凭空假如的想象,记忆总是不经意间被自己翻出,每次翻出后又会不自觉的加入自己的感受,于是记忆就成了印象,就像19世纪末印象派的作品,虽然也着重写生,但更多的是自己对景、对人的感悟 |
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